Chewy the pup
Chewy the new poodle pound pup is the sweetest boy ever. He has really been such a wonderful companion through this difficult time. I believe he thinks he is my husband now. He is next to me constantly. He is the most friendly of dogs. He's friendly with every person and every other dog and cat I've ever seen cross his path. But he is no camp dog, that I can say! I have just had the most difficult of times taking him camping. It is because of his sweetness that makes him so difficult. He wants to meet and greet every person and every hound that walks by the campsite. It makes relaxation difficult for me and all those around us. It appears until he gets a little older, and maybe less enthusiastic, and 'relaxed', but hopefully never less friendly, he may have to stay home from the camping adventures. Camping always makes me miss my sweet Lucy girl. But I know had I not had my sweet Chewy, these past 10 months would have been terribly dismal and lonely. He has been a terrifically loyal best friend.
Fun...
Last night my sweet friend Lisy asked me to help volunteer with the YWCA Tribute to Women's Award Banquet. I had a wonderful time. Although it seemed I did very little to help out, it was wonderfully organized, I enjoyed being around so many wonderful women and community supporters and especially my friends.
This weekend I am going up to the mountains with some friends and am going to spend some time relaxing. It's good to untangle your mind whenever you can.
I hope you have some fun things planned this weekend for yourself.. take care, love love...
Slowly but surely..
I'm slowly and surely climbing back into the flesh vehicle once known as lil Julie as I shed the last two years and the trauma of them. I've had to make amends to several relationships that I neglected. I completely committed myself to the marriage, but in an unhealthy way that cut me off - physically and emotionally- from most of my friends and family. They have been very understanding in allowing me to re-enter their lives and have been very supportive. My mother said she felt like she has her daughter back now after having lost her for several years.
It seems like my personality has changed, it will never be the same - hopefully it will be better, and smarter, taking from it what I have learned and letting go of what I don't need. I have been so sad for so long, I wondered if the silly laughing light hearted Julie might ever return, as I see her emerging more and more each day. The anger is lessening too as I see that he can choose to make these decisions to dishonor himself and our agreement with his own choices and it has nothing to do with me. It's not personal, it's just, in my opinion, who he is. Why let it bring me down and cloud my days and moods any longer. There is too much joy for me to feel and to give to others. I do have a huge heart and a great ability to love and for it to be weighed down by anger or sadness limits me and I refuse to allow him or this situation to do any more damage to me. Enough is enough.
I'm volunteering today at a special event for the YWCA, and doing some fun things this weekend. I'm going to have a test 'run' with a dog friend for my little boy Chewy next weekend to take in a little Pomeranian. I've made new friends. I'm getting more involved in church. I'm going to start hiking all the time. And looking into taking Tai Chi again.
Well, more later, love love...
Chewy the new poodle pound pup is the sweetest boy ever. He has really been such a wonderful companion through this difficult time. I believe he thinks he is my husband now. He is next to me constantly. He is the most friendly of dogs. He's friendly with every person and every other dog and cat I've ever seen cross his path. But he is no camp dog, that I can say! I have just had the most difficult of times taking him camping. It is because of his sweetness that makes him so difficult. He wants to meet and greet every person and every hound that walks by the campsite. It makes relaxation difficult for me and all those around us. It appears until he gets a little older, and maybe less enthusiastic, and 'relaxed', but hopefully never less friendly, he may have to stay home from the camping adventures. Camping always makes me miss my sweet Lucy girl. But I know had I not had my sweet Chewy, these past 10 months would have been terribly dismal and lonely. He has been a terrifically loyal best friend.
